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You said you’d love me until the end of the world
You promised you’d make this last forever girl
Is it my fault for believing all the poetic empty words?
For putting faith in your direction when everything was set to turn
Don’t worry it will soon be over
Kiss before the dream is sober
This night awakens hearts until we draw a last breath
Hold me till the crows take off
Until the blessed skies aloft
Come tumbling down around us until there’s nothing even left
I still think about that late Tuesday afternoon
The sunlight in your hair with darkness coming soon
A frozen moment held forever in my memory
A shattered screen playing images not meant for me
Don’t worry it will soon be over
Kiss before the dream is sober
I’m still drunk from all the mysteries I saw swimming in your eyes
A mad crescendo never made
The world becomes a serenade
A song that only you could sing, a whisper then a sigh
Don’t tell me that this dream has ended
Nothing I can say will mend it
The end of everything and the end of you and I
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Black Messina don’t believe her
Never fear I never hide
Bomb the scenes and don’t cancel it
Can’t I scream kill inside
BOMB – like a terrible thing
KILL – like the blackbird sing
DIE – in the eagle’s eye
SLEEP – for you and me
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All regret is just meaningless, when I look and just see your face
You’ve lived through all these secrets, put all the sadness in its place
I cried for all the things I’ve done, and you just looked at me and said
Your words are only poetry, please just forget the things you gave
The blood that spilled on mountain tops became a river down the stream
And all the pain that was given me when I was young i gift to thee
My darling, I am your vessel, and your emptiness I fill
Your demons are my angels, with this light the shadows I can kill
The blood that spilled on mountain tops became a river down the stream
And all the pain that was given me when I was young i gift to thee
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Whispering from a clouded place
I hear the words, such a silent face
I see her drive in a flaming car
With wheels like these she won’t get far
This anger burns through space and time
Like a bloodied heel for a thousand miles
I built this house, Just to tear it down
With dreams inside making awful sounds
I bathe you now in my crystal tears
Choose to forget your memory along the years
As I build up my kings and my hollow crown
Lonely wandering through these empty towns
I have grown up now in a dead end street
When the spaceship lands Please wave to me
Let your rib cage open as you swim the stars
Let the sunbeams burn your empty heart
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I give you permission, to delete
all the insanity, your mind plays on repeat
don't dig up bones, like a dirty dog
flood your possessed mind, clear the wicked fog
cast adrift, in a killer's nightmares
cauldron of emotion, fear is in the air
lost to the true forms, that you can’t outrun
imaginary everything, and inevitable outcomes
she's a digital native
in your shadow glitch
your heart is on fire, so burn the witch
hell on earth, we are not alone
born again, from the midnight zone
experience has been had, the lie is not what you're after
the whisper from her lips, only spells disaster
she's a digital native
in your shadow glitch
everything's on fire, burn the witch
it was a perfect dream, like a fish on a hook
now bleeding eyes, pour over her looks
her wicked way, will lead to ruin
but the one that got away, stole her illusion
she's a digital native
in your shadow glitch
listen to the choir sing, burn the witch
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I was drink, you were drugs
And we found the perfect love
When I was dry, you were high
But I never felt denied.
All the days that were burned And never to return
All the times that we leaned
on each other
till the seams Tore apart
with a rage
As a beast locked in a cage
Oh sweet surrender, I couldn't mend her
Empty promises, all left unsaid
Despite this song here, you are wrong dear
I do not wish to, raise the dead
Oh this blindness that you seek
This sobriety, it weeps
And the blood it keeps falling
Down
every passing wall
Every whisper is a scream
In this unremembered dream
Well just like that, you are gone
And it's time that I moved on
Oh sweet surrender, I couldn't mend her
Empty promises, all left unsaid
Despite this song here, you are wrong dear
I do not wish to, raise the dead
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I said these words in my mind, cover up this time
Hope my heart keeps on beating, all along the line
Might hear the spinning of infinity, coming up on me
Every yesterday competing for my memories
Even if we lost
Felt like a win
Even if the cost
Was this immortal sin
Even if it brought
Our walls caving in
Yes, they came caving in
When I lost myself, here I was found
These dirty streets are my hallowed ground
And I don’t mind that you changed, all along the years
Your blood pulses through my veins, my dear
Even if it’s gone
I will keep it here
Even if they won
I will not shed a tear
I remember what you were
You are my greatest love
I love my city girl, until she crumbles so
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Hello again, goodbye,
a princess of the night
This dream I had was you,
still living, and your smile
A century ago,
when we were only young
Took my hand and made me new
Put your whispers on my tongue
And with it, came these words,
to fly away like birds
A song and a symphony
to take away your sympathy
Your royal skin, it let me in,
advancing through this time again
Did the darling hurt, crumble
like everything was cursed?
That Coca Cola sign, lit the tears in your eyes
You cried for all the memories that were lost throughout the years
The cross it did bare
all the sinners and their cares
A triumph of the world,
whose hair she would unfurl
The kings and the queen,
our dances go unseen
But still it's with a smile,
I go those extra miles
A foot down, this new town,
I've trampled through and I've not found
A sight to match your face,
a beauty riddled in disgrace
I'll walk until this world ends
and still won't find your light again
HEART heavy with the sighs, of a thousand goodbyes
Let our screams be replaced by kisses and forgotten fears
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Every night I feel like whisky, every morning I feel my tears
Every wish I had just missed me, as I lost them along the years
No one knows the darkness kissed me, well they might but no one cares
Of the promises and whispers that even time cannot repair
So now I’m here and all that’s left, is a song that I can sing
The only way I can say I’m sorry, is to scream it to the wind
All regret is just meaningless, when I look and just see your face
You’ve lived through all these secrets, put all the sadness in its place
I cried for all the things I’ve done, and you just looked at me and said
My darling, I am your vessel, and your emptiness I fill
Your demons are my angels, with this light the shadows I can kill
Your words are only poetry, please just forget the things I gave
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Oh there’s a blue sky comin
It hurts me in my eyes
I heard that every rainbow
Brings a new surprise
Oh help me chase the devil
Out of yonder skies
I’ve lost myself in shadows
And watched my brother die
Come and lay me down in fields of green
Show me the beauty that I’ve never seen
Oh let me feel the raindrops
Touch our pale white skin
Take me to far off places
Where my soul has never been
Our sweat will dry in sunshine
Become a crystal tear
Help me sing my sorrow
And whisper to my fears
Come let’s lay down in the fields of green
Dance in moonlight through the darkest dream
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the truth - can set us free
but no one that I can ever trust - will want the truth out of me
desire, - truth won't disguise
a hand on the trigger - with a head full of lies
i'm down to die - upon the wind
no heavy handed - virtue in this tailspin
desire, - truth won't disguise
a hand on the trigger - with a head full of lies
it doesn't matter who I am - or where I've been
by the silvery waters - someone who can sink or swim
desire, - truth won't disguise
a hand on the trigger - with a head full of lies
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Heaven knows the way you love me
Is too tired and forlorn
It's like you've lived a million lives before
But for me it's only one
Heaven knows I'm crazy
heaven knows I'm numb
I watch you falling in the gutter
in the light of a burning sun
And everything that hurts me,
Is all the things I think of
And all the things I remember
Are no details at all
There’s just so many faces
But I know that one is yours
But the reasons you’re not here now
I simply don’t recall
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Hey billy, why did you shoot her down
You should be alive today
But you hang on the tree outside
As they set fire to your life
I take my guns and I hunt at night
Take my future and set it alight
There’s nothing left for us to say
Hey billy gonna take your place today
Hey billy, did you shoot her dead
Because the nasty things she said
I heard they dragged you on the dusty road
and you came apart from the head to your throat
I take my guns and I hunt at night
Take my future and set it alight
There’s nothing left for us to say
Hey billy gonna take your place today
Hey billy, did you whistle so?
At the white woman, on this dirty coast
Never done from a black man’s son
Hey billy you’re not the only one
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Steal a car
Take a pill
Leave the country
Die on a hill
Leave your home land
Kill the scene
Send me a postcard
From where I’ve been
Inhale the clean air
Cut your ties
Feel my forcefield
Blind my eyes
Burn my bass drum
Kill my pride
Doctor shadows
Slow decline
Fuck the queen and the country
The king, the president
I’m going to burn it down
From my suburban nest
Yes there is love
Just not for us
No God above
Baby that’s enough
Yes there is love
But not for us
Just drink and drugs
Baby that’s enough
See my gravestone
Kick it in the dirt
Let the grass grow
Till nothings left
Where’d you come to
Where’d you go
Look behind you
What did I do wrong
Never blamed her
You’d have done the same
Left it dead and unborn
Without a name
Yes there is love
Just not for us
No God above
Baby that’s enough
Yes there is love
But not for us
Just drink and drugs
Baby that’s enough
Steal a car
Take a pill
Leave the country
Die on a hill
Leave your home land
Kill the scene
Send me a postcard
From where I’ve been
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I slipped a knife into the guts of the one I love
Time and time again I screamed to the skies up above
I heard the news and they told me that the day might never come
I went to church full of hope that they’d forgive all that I’d done
A gentle whisper of a girl with her hair as red as flame
She never wondered why the darkness and the pain knew her by name
She never knew that when she met me the devil had come home
I took the heart of flesh that she gave me and turned it into stone
With a name engraved So sorry
what can I say?I’ve been evil I’ve been dirty
With a name engraved So sorry
Since the day I was born
I walk the roads now and leave all the guilty behind
These empty streets but seek it and you shall find
A little treasure full of pleasure and a soft and easy smile
I hope you’re ready not unsteady for I will come inside
Take a dance and waste the chance of living near the sea
I’ve finally risen to the christening of me
I’ll make you love me so intently you’ll forget all that you’ve known
I’ll grind your dreams into dust, like a rusted winters bone
With a name engraved So sorry
what can I say?I’ve been evil I’ve been dirty
With a name engraved So sorry
Since the day I was born
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I miss you all
Everybody that has gone
The whispers
The winds have taken you along
And I wonder
What is my place
Without you I am lost
Every road
Every day is just a journey
To an ending
I don’t know what I’m doing
I find myself talking
Speaking words I’ve never heard
Wishing you were there laughing
Telling me I’m always wrong
A guiding hand to help me
Or just say a sound in song
Give me a melody
A dance I can hold the future
Look to the side and see you
I don’t know what I’m doing
Smiling as I stumble
Then pick me up to carry on
And the music it reminds me
Of all the scars and all the pain
Of all the dark days in the history
How I’ll never hold you once again
But I know it’s a fleeting
Hold I have on time
We’ll be back together soon I know
When the end of this is mine
A heartbeat shared
A heartbeat stopped
And now I’m found
Where I was lost
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We move at midnight
Whispering your plans until it feels right
Kiss me where we stand, right here
Tell me I’m your man, I feel no fear
She never had a chance in hell of living
We’re just playing with the hands with which we’re given
Needles on our records,
in our arms, in our veins
Revolving around
To bring us back here again
You wonder why we never left
I wonder why we came
The instruments have changed
But the song is still the same
We move at midnight
I promise you we’ll leave when that clock strikes
Please lay down for a while with me until then
I’ve been hurting since a time, I don’t know when
Just one last hit
I promise its the final nail, our hearts fit
Needles on our records,
in our arms, in our veins
Revolving around
To bring us back here again
You wonder why we never left
I wonder why we came
The instruments have changed
But the song is still the same
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Pictures of You
After the love we lay smoking in bed, you flicking your ash in the hole in my chest where my heart should have been. The television, at that moment still unbroken, its screen still intact, lit the room in forever changing light.
I watch the shadows dance across the smooth skin of your thigh, your leg draped across mine, as I think back to that very first time, remembering the sounds of our breathing as we lay in the long grass high above your town, our beads of perspiration drying in the summer sun as we stared at each other and smiled, just smiled, because no words were needed or desired.
I would not know it yet, but this would be the image I would think of on my deathbed, using the long drawn out hours to press my face against the veil of my fading memory.
“We should do something,” you say, breaking the spell.
“Hmmm….What should we do?”
“Oh I don’t know...maybe we should go away somewhere, just the two of us?”
I think about us, the two of us, and think about where somewhere might be.
“I mean, don’t you get bored, sometimes? Bored of this house, this city, the same routine, the same people? Don’t you ever want to see something new?”
“Sure,” I offer, suddenly confused. “A holiday would be nice.”
“I’m not talking about a holiday,” you say. “I’m talking about leaving, getting out, going away and not coming back. Just walking out of the door and leaving all this behind, start anew somewhere else, somewhere different.”
I often replay the words that came next, turning them over in my mind and making them different, making me different. I understand now. Time, reimagined. Redone. I reshape our fates in a different mould.
Did I understand what you were saying at the time, but buried it, scared as I was to leave? Or has regret warped my sense of memory? Regardless, I think about seeing you again.
An accidental meeting at a gas station on a long drive. A familiar voice behind me in a queue at the store. Walking into a restaurant on the coast to see you sitting there, laughing again.
Wrapped in the threads that bind us and the moments we shared, I rehearse my apology often
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He sleeps on the rock,
where you discard your paper cup
The wind it blew long,
streets singing different songs
Wine, it ran like blood
down the gutters as it should
Taming over many stones
The bite of aging brittle bones
All the best ones are married
All the Pretty Ones are Dead
You meant the world to a yesterday
For which history doesn’t care
I saw colour in the past,
pacing shade could it not last?
There’s beauty in the stars,
please forgive each passing car
For they know not what they do,
they don’t know what they’ve been
For they know not who I am,
or the things that I have seen
All the best ones are married
All the Pretty Ones are Dead
You meant the world to a yesterday
For which history doesn’t care
Leaving brings the pain,
so much I can’t arrive again
Suffocated by a lie,
disinfected in a dream
Having music though a window,
a crazy tomorrow black crescendo
The kingdom has died,
our culture has been denied
For they know not who they are,
or all the things we’ve seen
All the best ones are married
All the Pretty Ones are Dead
You meant the world to a yesterday
For which history doesn’t care
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I tried to find a girl for rent, but nothing in my world was spent, ain't everyone just tryin to find, a heart that takes a thing to find, the mystery of experience
We're all just waiting to be dead, but still I think of the things you said, the words l hold just leave me cold, but whispers in the wind just tell me
About the mystery of experience
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Words in pain
So much harder
Not a joke
A complete disaster
Anxiety ridden
Internal rhythms shaken
Suicidal thoughts awakened
Stone cold mother fuck
Is this what I am
tears well out of other men
Crunching fears
And hurling them
Stone cold mother fuck
the best I can
Fragile is the egg shell man
crashing his worlds
And corrupting children
Help me help me
No one can
Save me save me
When it can’t be done
Can I please get a wah wah
Melt in the sun
Of never ceasing drama
Stone cold
Getting colder
Breaking bones
Its a complete disaster
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You believe in your God only when you can’t define her
But the devil raises questions, puts dark shadows in your eyes
Your regret is a weapon, a mystery entwined
With your half forgotten future, as you’re running out of time
That Sunday was the best day, when you walked along the sand
Let the water wash your sins away, yet still you held his hand
So tightly and forever. Sweet music from the band
Serenaded every shyness, helped you bless this land
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Wow just wow
I don’t know
Fuck me
Guilty for the stupidest shit
Judged against what
Maybe just too intense
Wrap me in cotton wool
Hug me right
Let me sleep tonight
I hope you are ok my loves
Teleport me
Teleport me home
Teleport me
Please I want to just be home
Maybe at this age
Finally
This is stupid
Maybe now the age shouldn’t be diluted
Maybe claw back what’s been lost
Maybe try not to die for as long as possible
As futile as that is
Maybe it’s just pain now to not do that
Maybe most definitely it’s all over and I’m past it
Hurting and anxiety driven
Hurting
Teleport me to sleep
Safe and home
I hope I can protect and save you
I hope I’m not too late
I hope I didn’t fuck up
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My love, I wish you’d come.
To watch the lightning out at sea.
The full moon hanging high
Listen to laughter from my balcony.
My love, I wish you’d come.
To hear the valley fill with rain.
I’d hold your hands and whisper
That the devil knew my name
The world outside can wonder
But i can think no more
I’m lost in open ocean
A ship crashed on your shores
My love, I wish you’d come.
To ease my terrors and my pain
And in turn I would take your darkness
And help you shine again
My love, I wish you’d come
But i know for what it’s worth
That soon I will join your soul
Lay my dead heart in the dirt
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History is bored of me
The ages of your mystery
Unfolded like I’d lived them then
Till ships sailed these shores again
But never lose and never love
Till hell rains down from god above
And smashes all your little dreams
Of living life so young and free
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Watching YouTube from a deathbed
Read stories that I’ve misread
Hear music that I’ve never heard before
My memory is a pipe dream
See things that have been unseen
The past brings back the things I never knew in store
A Pisces with a fish head
A whisper from the undead
A sinking feeling like the days of yore
I sweat into the clean sheets
A lovers kiss tastes so sweet
Carries with it, leaves me wanting more
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